It’s hard to believe that we are now coming to the end of Kaleb’s 37th week of life. Truly, it is a miraculous act of God to create a living soul in the moment of conception and then in the window of 9 months carefully and masterfully cloth that precious life in a body that is fearfully and wonderfully made. How quickly I can forget the beauty of life. I confess when my children ignore my plain instruction, seek to hurt one another and show indifference to their sin I sometimes catch myself thinking life was better when it was just my wife and I. Just being honest, parenthood is the most difficult and demanding task that I have ever been a part of. The scary part is that the tough, demanding role of parenthood forces me to come to face to face with my own selfish and sin sick heart, for it is difficult to gloss over anger when your four year old has purposefully dumped his drink on the floor for the third time while laughing and then your two year old tries the same thing, hoping to get some laughs too! Undoubtedly, parenthood is a powerful tool of sanctification and self-examination. Never have I asked for forgiveness so many times in a day.
Conversely, despite the struggle and internal battle that rages, when I pause and mediate upon the Word and my own experience in regards to children and life I can’t help but rejoice and have a sense of joy wash over me. True, such moments tend to happen when they are sleeping and I stop by their room to kiss them goodnight and voice one more prayer for them, but the Word and the Spirit of God within me confirm to my soul that these little one’s are precious in their Heavenly Fathers eyes. I remember as a single guy being around children longing to be a daddy. For I believe that every human understands the beauty to some degree, because we are all image bearers and Paul would point out that even the unrighteous supress the truth (Rom. 1:18). We are created by a life giving God, a God who does not delight in death (Ez. 18:23); for He is not the author of the very thing that brought death into the world, namely sin. Romans 5:12 is clear, “Therefore, just as sin came into the world through one man, and death through sin, and so death spread to all men because all sinned” (emphasis mine). God cannot even be tempted by sin (James 1:13 “…for God cannot be tempted with evil and he himself tempts no one.”), much less sin himself. Truly it is clear, we serve a God of light, a God who loves life and hates murder.
Therefore, as I think about our life with Kaleb and the initial pressure (although not substantial), to terminate his life because of the potential extra chromosome known as Down Syndrome, I shudder to consider how exact opposite such a decision is to the very nature of God. God is just, absolutely and therefore does punish evil by the way of death (Read Revelation 2:21-23 if you don’t believe me!), however when it comes murder (which is different than a just punishment like the death penalty), God clearly hates it and abhors those who partake in it. Proverbs 6:16-19 describes seven things that God hates and among that list we find “hands that shed innocent blood”. Of all the places we could call human life innocent, none compare with that of a helpless baby inside his/her mother’s womb. If we want to proclaim to be followers of Jesus, the God-man, then we must display His heart by His Spirit working within us. Another proverb that has struck me recently is Proverbs 8:36 which says, “But he who sins against me injures himself; all those who hate me love death”.
So, why can we not kill Kaleb? Simply because we serve a God of life. We worship a God who delights in life and creates it, and grants it to us as an overflow of His own beauty and power and majesty. To murder is to mock our creator and call His creation which He called “very good”, very bad. Even if Kaleb does have Down Syndrome or worse, we cannot elevate ourselves above our creator and destroy that which He gives. Yes disease came as a result of the fall, but it does not give us the right to destroy life nor does it remove the image of God from those who suffer with it. Yes raising a child with a disorder would be very hard at times, but how rich it is to be entrusted with life from the creator of life. And such disorders will not always be so, for those who have been washed in the blood of Christ by faith, for those who are looking unto Christ, they will shine like the sun in full strength. “In a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound and the dead will be raised imperishable, and we shall be changed. For this perishable body must put on the imperishable, and this mortal body must put on immortality. When the perishable puts on the imperishable and the mortal puts on immortality, then shall come to pass the saying that is written: ‘Death is swallowed up in victory’ ‘O death, where is victory? O death, where is your sting?’ (1 Cor. 15:53-55).
Can God forgive the sin of abortion? Absolutely, for where sin abounds grace can abound all the more (Rom. 5:20). Not to mention the sin of hatred/anger in my own heart regarding my own children. I think if we are honest we would confess that we are all guilty of murder at that level of the heart which is where Jesus set the bar (Mat. 5:22). So as long as there is breathe in your lungs, Jesus holds out the offer of forgiveness and renewal. But it is not cheap, for it cost the Son of God his very life. He took the full wrath and just punishment against our sin upon Himself on the cross 2000 years ago. Truly, no purchase has ever been so costly as our forgiveness. But for us, it is free. All the gospel demands of us is to repent of our sin and call upon Christ for salvation. And as we do, His Spirit enters into our newly washed hearts and He begins to make us like our creator, namely, a people who love life.